Scheduling

9 Aug 2013, 4:46 AM

Yesterday I attended group as usual. I like my Thursday night group. The problem is that now that school has started, my extra-curricular activities might interfere. I would like to continue meeting with this group because I like the format they have. After we have the sharing portion of the meeting we have a question-and-answer portion where we can ask the group questions and get direct advice. Other groups in town do not follow this pattern. I have another day of the week I can easily adjust to, but the only meetings on that night are very far away.

I originally attended e support group when it was still in its creation phase, back when it was co-ed even. That was very disturbing and awkward. It is very hard to admit that you have an addiction to pornography when there are women there. I quit going after only a month or two of those meetings. A few years later, I started going again out of guilt but then quit again because I didn't allow the group to help. Then I made it s summers only thing using the fact that because I commute to another town to teach, I couldn't attend group meetings. I found every excuse I could not to go.

It wasn't until this year that I started to appreciate group meetings and enjoy going. I feel the Spirit there when I go, I see familiar faces, I feel of others' testimonies, and several there actually discuss their successes since we have some who come who have been sober for years. It is interesting now that instead of trying to find excuses not to go, I am trying to determine how I am going to adjust my schedule so that I can always go.

I also kind of laughed at myself yesterday when I went because I was a little bit early. It used to be that I would pull up and try to hide the recovery manual and rush into the building so nobody saw me. This time I decided to just shoe up early and take a quick nap in the car while waiting for the doors to open. This must be a sign of recovery. I have become comfortable with my state in life and confident in the fact that I am on the road to recovery.

I hope I can find a way to continue meeting with my current group.